Dear Openhand,

This dialogue reflects a transmutation I've (And who may that be?!) just had, whereby i'm having a course of Atmanology Sessions. It all seemed to revolve around some material recalling experiences the consciousness had during a spiritual emergency years ago. The Soul obviously hadn't integrated these experiences, which relate to recent explorations, and is the reason the Soul was having these explorations. The spiritual emergence was traumatic, the ego was completely ignorant spiritually. It involved a lengthy catatonic state whereby the brainwaves flat lined and the consciousness went into a dark abyss. A kaleidoscope of extremely intense phenomena occurred over the course of several weeks. The Self recovered and integrates back into the now realised cosmic dream field as Soul. Then, last year, the Soul was delving into some Buddhist Tantric practices called Tummo. Part of the practice involves guided meditations  of the journey of the consciousness during the death experience, which are said to involve three stages of  immersion into complete darkness with the felt sense of the cessation of various bodily drops and winds (excuse me). This is to ready the Soul for a desirable transition upon death. I realised that this must've been what these inner journeys were during that traumatic spiritual expansion. They may have been the Soul recalling previous death experiences and future training. There was a sense that the Self was neither dead nor alive, and at the time I thought I was actually in a bardo-state, even though the body was evidently still alive. Now i'm used to that sense and put it down to resonating with timeless-eternity, thinking nothing more about it. However, further integrating this material has allowed a deeper sense of God within the essence of the being, guiding the Soul vessel in the phenomenal dream field. This has liberated the Soul from the desire to liberate, or to go anywhere in particular at body-death, especially back to Source where it already is. Sometimes, I refer to myself as a third party, or even as this one, to remain as unidentified as the true reality is. Currently, I feel the cycling up to another shift, hence the release of some energy through talking. It's amusing seeing the reflections, all riding the same wave I see.

With loving-kindness

Starsky