Greetings Angela, welcome to Openhand 🙏

My heart goes out to you in your challenges with the strong activation of Kundalini. Yes, it can be destabilising if it is forced in some way - through excessive pranic kundalini breathing, for example or through plant medicines such as Ayahausca. Although I've not come across it through excessive orgasm as in your case. But I can see that if you're doing this, combined with breathwork, and driving attention upwards to higher chakras (like the 3rd eye), that it could happen. I would say though, in your case, it's most likely related to a karmic past-life experience where forced kundalini practices were being applied. The sense of a "goddess temple" comes to my intuition. I would say your experience is karmic also because it's unlikely that excessive orgasm, of itself, would cause the state you describe. If you've activated karma, then what's likely happened, is you've triggered a past life state, which you've not yet managed to integrate, and that's caused you to go out of body to a degree.

You said...

I am now in a very, very primitive state and have suffered massive cognitive decline, very serious memory issues, lack of emotion and personality and have very little functional ability. I feel as though I am losing touch with reality and it is very scary. I am unable to think properly at all or to feel connection with my loved ones. I am just surviving. I cannot work and cannot take care of household responsibilities.

This confirms, almost certainly, that your consciousness has gone "out of body" to a fair degree, probably caused by the activation of the past life experience. This means that the consciousness of your soul is not able, at the moment, to fully infuse in the lower bodily vehicles: lower mind, the emotional body and even the physical body. What needs to happen now, is a meditative regression through the experiences that have caused this, so that soul fragments stuck in the experience can be retrieved (soul-retrieval as the shamans call it). Then a progressive reintegration of soul through these lower layers, through gentle chakra breathing attunement (the kind we apply at Openhand), connection with nature, good healthy diet with plenty of dense foods (healthy organic and ideally plant-based). Then to work on integrating higher with lower self - again through gentle breathing meditations.

I have come across several people who've experienced debilitating physical consequences due to forced kundalini practice. But I also know that it can be healthily reversed and the soul integrated through it. I have been party to many integrations through challenging past life situations, which if handled properly and with expertise, can dissolve and integrate quickly.

What I would recommend is that you reach out to our Community Connector, Tilly Bud. Because I believe it would be best for you to work with an experienced facilitator to help you regress and integrate.... contact Tilly

Love and well wishes

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