Hi Steve

Its a beautiful thing to hold space for another who may not be as consciously awake like you are doing for your father. Its a strong person who can sit with the sadness. For years I thought tears were weakness but they are not they are strength. One huge realisation I had after the passing of my mum was that we all have our different gifts - mine is to be with people in their most vulnerable moments and I have the strength for that and it includes honouring my grief. For a long time I felt less than my sister - she is "successful" in the matrix kind of way yet she couldn't sit with my parents and hold space like I could. Her gifts helped in other ways. I have done this for the last few years for both my parents watched them both suffer and struggle while feeling so sad yet keeping one eye on the greater picture that this is just a moment in the real vastness of a souls experience. I can still remember seeing my strong resourceful father lying in a hospital bed after a heart attack looking the opposite so weakened. Yet it seemed this is when he started to become much wiser and stronger in other ways instead of just physically. I kept asking the angels to surround them and me. At one point my mum who had dementia came around somewhat and said to me "oh there are four angels around the bed and you are one of my angels aren't you love" and "theres my mum and brothers standing over there". I know it gave her comfort and it certainly gave me comfort. Such difficult times but now thinking of it really it was a huge blessing and honour to be with them through their difficult times and their transitioning. Even expressing how sad and how helpless you feel is a great strength I think.
blessings to you
Elaine