Hello Bianca =)

Wow - so much of what you are sharing has been (and is) part of my journey too. You said "I don't find it straightforward how to be with those aspects of me that are a works in progress." In my experience I can either work to accept that this is how I am being now- all of it - the work in progess aspects etc or I can be in some sort of resistance to what is. I have found that working to accept that this is how it is now, this is how I feel now with all the sensations (including fight or flight), emotions and situations that I have drawn to me is key, From that place of acceptance, there is openness to feel it all, explore and express it and ways of being naturally arise from that place...it may be compassion for self, for other, it may be courage, persistence, or any of the qualities of Soul.

You said here "Sometimes to feel things it feels like i need to walk through the fight and flight mode and walk right into the heart of things as theyre happening. " Yes - I have found that going right into the heart of things is the way through as well. For me it's about total acceptance of the fight/flight that washes through me (which happens easily for me), yet not allowing it to limit or deter me from feeling and being who I am through it. Connecting to my breath and a sense of an anchor within me - a place where I feel me even as the phsyiology is going crazy is so key for me. Something I have been noticing lately as well is that at times the fight or flight in me kicks in so loudly that it swamps the underlying soft spot that is being triggered...what a big protection mechanism that is - so it's important for me to not get lost in managing the fight/flight and ignoring what uncomfortable feeling was arising before it took off running. Of course, not to discount that many of us have fight/flight in overdrive as sensitive souls in a overstimulated world. Trinity wrote an excellent article related to this...https://www.openhandweb.org/adrenal_burn_out_how_to_treat_naturally

x
Jen