What a beautiful sharing, very touching. Seeing the beauty in everything around us and within us – seeing/touching/tasting/hearing/smelling divine love and feeling the source of it inside.
Today it was raining and I went for a walk and meditation time in the woods. In a very dear place of mine where I can be away from the ugliness I encounter in my surroundings near home and all around. The ugliness I see refers to the violence and enslavement inflicted on all animals.
In the woods I always see and feel the beauty of the trees, the river, the birds, the Dartmoor ponies who come over to me for apples, the ducks, the rocks, the leaves…everything radiates love. “I love you” I always say to each one of them, no matter how big or small. I lie on the roots of the tall trees and I find myself sinking into their loving embrace. It brings tears to my eyes every time. I am grateful. I am also aware that at times, out of a sense of lack, I try to ‘make love stay’. Today, the message of the trees was clear “love is You, you are love”, totally unexpected. It all felt warm. “Love me like you do”, the ultimate surrender.
But, I am fading in and out on the edge of paradise…on my way back to my car grief, which was lingering on the background, swelled up and I felt so sad about the animals, thinking: “how can I feel love when they don’t?”, “how can I accept this feeling, when it has been taken away from them?”, “how can I be happy when they are not?”. Nothing to do or say, it’s just is.
After teaching a pilates class tonight, I went to do some shopping and as I was leaving the shop the song “Love me like you do” played on the background… a sense of trust in divine love returned while feeling through and processing the grief.