Synchronistic post for me. Its been a while I have had this thoughts and feeling that I shoulds allign my outer reality to a different one but I guess I kept ignoring them because of the various attachment for the current one and things I love doing here. But then it happened without me even taking a step towards that. I guess I have been working towards that internally and outside conflict and tension has been building in response to that. It happened in the last staff meeting we had at school and I spoke my truth and opinion which seemed like it was directed at the authority and I was asked to leave. It triggered all sorts of response, of rejected, not wanted, not good enough, not supported, of needing comfort and security etc. I'm still grieving through the loss of the old reality. I also feel like I was cheated, or maybe I kept cheating myself in needing to belong and conjuring up this feeling of family within the community and that's all gone just like that. It's exactly at these moments when you get to see the fake faces and the real ones. I feel uncertain of the way forwards.
I know for sure, this is what needed to happen and I'm seeing synchronicties pointed towards that like this quote for instance - "I discovered that I could create a new reality that's aligned with my true potential". I do feel good about the fact that my soul had chosen this way even though its uncomfortable in the beginning. I read something on a tshirt the other day. " sore today strong tommorrow".