Hi Janjavi,

I empathise and feel for you. I'm glad you find this website like 'home' - that's what it's purpose is - it's meant to be like doorways into the energy itself.

You said...

I am literally dying for change. Deep down I feel I am more and my life need not be caged. But then, the relationships and the societal structure are entirely against the pull of my heart. They require me to bend and tow the line they have drawn. I literally feel I am suffocating, like dying a slow death. Somewhere, I fear the relationships ( of course very close ones). There are lot of 'what ifs'

Have you been reading the Sirian Archetype? I'd say you'll see a lot of karmic reflections there. Particularly this exchange today... Confusing Empathy for Attachment in the Sirian Archtype

I think you'll find some big clues in that article and thread. Plus also, it's about working diligently inwards to 'unpack' the inner layers we find within relationships. Yes there will be fear about where that might lead - but you have to decide at some point that change is important for your soul - and that doesn't always mean that what we fear in the relationships, will actually happen.

I've also added something to our "Sword of Truth" inquiry this morning - you might get something from that...
What happens when you go deep within?

Sending love, wishing you well

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