Hello. I'm Linda. I have been here for a while. Staying just outside. Looking through the windows and wanting to fully enter, but not quite crossing the threshold to come fully inside. Fear. This week, I have been connecting during the retreat, and experiencing the powerful energy of the community. I have been feeling things so deeply, with a knowing I am connected. I wish I could say it was all lovely! This has translated into some deep and extraordinarily painful processing. Today I made the decision to enter the community because the depth of the feeling feels too intense to handle on my own at times. I feel the love and support of the Openhand community is palpable in a way I can only recently understand. I have not yet met Trinity, but feel a hug from her would nourish my soul in the way that her nutritious food would nourish my body. I crave that nourishment now as a perfect storm of mirrors and reflections have created intense internal feelings that I am willing to dive into, but feel I am holding back because I'm afraid I will get lost in the dark if I continue to go at it alone. So, thank you for embracing me within this family.