Hi Open and all

Thanks for the reminder to reflect as we see the old year draws to a close and the new year unfolds. That's what I'll do today--hours before the count down- I'll write in my journal and see the year that went by. As I write this, I already feel some powerful emotions coming out.

I have created my own s**t this year and I take full responsibility for I allowed myself to be in the situation that I was in. If I had not done it, none of this would have happened. Regret is one thing, but I also recognize why I did what I did. I acknowledge that need. And I have to be careful not to blame myself because what prompted me to do it was there- conscious act and the things that unfolded were simply consequences of that.

For the coming new year, the thought of mastering our own life by the choices we make each day is overwhelming. What if we make the same kind of s**t? Being mindful, I guess.

Sometimes, I just have to tune in to what the spirit is telling me. If I don't get what I want and it's not happening, I know that it's not for me and it's best to let go although very very painful to do. But it is the way it is.

Thanks Open again. I'll be tuning in with the vibes you guys are sending out.