Hi Anastasia - I hear you. I know just how difficult these powerful transformations can be. Often you find yourself alone in them, where few, if any, can understand. No one wrote the guide book!

It does sound to me as if this kind of occurance could possibly have happened to you - a soul exchange. A 'normal' awakening can indeed happen strongly, and strong transformation happen in a relatively short period of time, assuming there's complete commitment to the process. But even afterwards, usually, many traits of the original personality will remain. That's because the ego is founded on the natural personality of the soul - it is a mere distortion of it.

What stood out the most strongly of what you shared was this...

The bottom line is I feel like I’m turning into a completely different person, and I have with great discomfort looked upon my family several times (even my own kids) and wondered “who are they?”.

I would say that's a classic symptom of a soul exchange. Exactly the same happened for me. I found it very hard to identify. But then worked to find love anyway, of course. But whether it is a soul exchange or not, it's still a similar matter of working to integrate your authentic soul experience. The story does matter, because there will be all kinds of integrational feelings to work through - like not being understood or feeling ostracised for example. Also perhaps guilt at the effect it might have had on others around you such as biological family (I certainly felt that at times). Work to move beyond the story by integrating soul through it - progressively, over time.

Be gentle on yourself too - be prepared for it to take several years or more, before you find complete rightness in it. That will likely include helping those around you come to accept it too as you now are - but be very wary with whom you speak of 'walk-in' or 'soul-exchange'. Society in general would have little or no understanding, and the risk is to receive a good deal of projection your way - it can make some people feel uncomfortable. So perhaps with those people who are unlikely to get it, explore simply talking about something like 'powerful life transformation'. In effect, that's what it is anyway.

If you drop our community coordinator an email, she will find an appropriate facilitator to work on it with...
Aspasia@openhandweb.org

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