Hi Dominik,

First let me encourage you on - the fact that you're inquiring, and exploring in this way is a wonderful thing. It demonstrates commitment and passion. 👍

One distortion of this though, is sometimes to slip into 'beating oneself up. "I'll never be good enough". The point is, that in the soul, in the relativistic, there is no absolute - no perfection. When you can let go of any sense of the need for purity and perfectionism, that will likely be a great help.

You said...

I do wonder though, where lies the border between good innovation and indiscipline? How can you find it for yourself? I know that rigidity and dogma is dangerous but so might be disrupting a routine for me. When doing so, there is a danger (at least in my case) of falling into some bad habit instead of beneficial innovation. On the other hand, I usually can't even follow my planned routine day after day and from time to time I have to disrupt it and do something completely unexpected. Sadly, sometimes it's just procrastinating, internet usually. I used to see this fact as my laziness and indiscipline, however, I have been recently feeling that it might also be some inner impulse that invites me to change my perception of discipline and rigidity.

When you ask a question like this, 'I do wonder though, where lies the border between good innovation and indiscipline?', work to realise that is needs to be rhetorical. Why? Because the question is the answer! Meaning: by holding the question, you get to forge soul through that grey area. It's the only way you can find the clarity.

For my own part, what I see on my path, is a constantly developing rhythm: there are 'programs' approaches, disciplines and meditations I like to use, and I know are necessary to propel me forward. But the risk is they become dogmatic, which of itself, risks unconscious practice. Which is derailing of the soul. So I work to be fully conscious in them: how does this want to develop and grow now? How can I gain the maximum from this moment?

You said, about your 'indiscipline'...

Sadly, sometimes it's just procrastinating, internet usually. I used to see this fact as my laziness and indiscipline.

Okay, so you recognise there's a distortion in the behaviour. How so? It's your reference to internet use. We do actually know when we're straying from what is right and aligned for us, at a soul level. But always, where working with a distortion, ask, "What's the truth in it?" Work to express the truth, and unwind the distortion. That's where to work.

So in procrastination for example, I would say the truth is, being clear before jumping in, that you are meant to do that, the timing is right, and the field is moving with you. But where that becomes unconscious prevarication, or fear of moving forward, or a disconnect from the divine flow, then you know the truth of it is becoming distorted. We must go to work there, by accepting the distortion, honestly owning it, but without self-judging, and then working in those areas of unconsciousness - bringing full awareness to them. Then you unleash the truth through them.

Do be thankful for these areas of unconsciousness - we come to realise, they determine the path!

Finally, I felt to share this Openhand video, that might give some extra impetus to your inquiry...

Bright blessings,

Open 💎