I awoke early this morning and felt the anguish of an ancient pain with such depth that I could feel my heart break. I sensed that long ago in a faraway land, I existed as pure light and incarnated on planet earth to nix an intervention that would sever life from connection to Source. I was overcome with sorrow and tears for failing to hold the light as I had hoped to do. Instead, after incarnating, I was overcome with a sense of loss and separation from Source and felt utterly abandoned and betrayed by Divine Benevolence. I got lost in the 3D density and darkness. Yesterday I asked Divine Benevolence to show me why I have continued to batter my body over and over again in this lifetime. This morning I got my answer. As I felt myself consumed with sorrow and grief, I softened into the pain and breathed the light of my soul through it. I felt some ease, some letting go of the need to punish myself for the guilt I feel.

I am here once again to shine the light in the darkness during these tumultuous times as life in 3D comes to a close and we ascend to 5D. This time around I have the support of the Openhand community to help me sustain the courage to hold to my mission. I thank God for all of you.

Yesterday, I was dialoguing with Jean-Michel on Facebook who posted the above song "I see Fire" which I have on my iPod. I downloaded it last year when Open posted it on the forum after seeing the Hobbit film "The Desolation of Smaug." Jean-Michel and I commented about the Great Purification happening now and about to escalate here on planet earth. I awoke to see the song posted here. There are many forest fires burning out of control in British Columbia right now. A sign of the times and of my own inner purification, burning away my attachments and identities. The only way forwards to dissolve my fear is to keep breathing the light of my soul through the intense body pain and emotions I am feeling these days. I am weary. I get discouraged. I feel like I don't have the strength to keep going at times. But I continue anyway.

xxx Catherine