Dear Open, Wow, what a divine delight to be have "stumbled' upon your site, I have been asking the Universe to show me! 4 Years ago I was watching a documentary on dolphins being slaughtered in Japan - suddenly an immense feeling of sadness and despair fell on me -into me, I was channelling into the pain of these beautiful creatures. I have never cried as much as I did - finishing an entire box of tissues at once. It pretty much then started to unravel for me. I ended up leaving my job - a very glamorous highly paid existence and fell in a deep despair. I questioned everything - nothing made sense anymore. Days would go by and I wouldn't even see the light of day. I was using all kinds of substances to numb the pain and "escape". I lost control of who and what I was. I started seeing energy forms, some good, some bad. I channelled Mahatma Ghandi and Shirdi Baba - I started seeing dead people in my lounge wanting to "share" their pain and story with me. It was mayhem. I went from contract jobs to being unemployed to losing my life savings in a business that collapsed after 3 months. I was so lost and alone and scared. I couldn't make sense of anything. Through a close friend and spiritual human master - I started to experience some sort of "sense" of what was happening. I had white misty beings touch me and laugh and tease in my room where I had to pinch myself to see if I was really seeing what I was seeing. I have also tapped into the most beautiful guides - a Red Indian warrior and a monk with a white flowing beard. I started to be able to read peoples minds and do channellings - often revealing facts and instances of peoples lives much to their amazement. I believed at that point I was a way shower. Flashes and twinkles of light and beings from other realms I assume became part of my daily life. I delved into various books about clairvoyance and one night whilst attempting the pendulum method to my absolute terror managed to open a portal for some "unwelcome" energies to regain entry back to Earth. I was explicitly warned by my human spirit master to NEVER delve into anything like that again as I could open portals that could allow forth much more detrimental energies. I met Shainal in 2013 - we had the initial twin flame recognition and embarked on a romance that was a divine experience from day 1. One night him and I were lying on the bed and we saw this mist - as we zoned in it started taking a shapes and forms. It was unbelievable, it was a golden mist and took on whatever shape we imagined in our minds. Doing the research we realised it was Creator Light/God Particle perhaps? It became part of our lives and existence. Then it would change colours ranging from the most beautiful blues and greens and reds and pinks, just breath taking particles of light that would manifest in what we imagined it to be. Beams of light emanate from our fingers and we would be able to create little balls of light within our palms. It is truly otherworldly and is a part of our lives now. I then was very attracted to the Arcturian messages and there were many synchronistic signs from them that I could possibly be from that star constellation. I started seeing these circular abstract flashes of radiant light in my periphery - like patterns of light - it was exactly like the shapes I would see related to the Arcturians. I also see a tunnel vision effect in my peripheral where the light curves into a shadow effect. I assume this is the 5D. Nonetheless for all my abilities - and tapping into other realms - I have read and followed many spiritual channellers as well - my divinity always seemed to not be serving me much. That is until I found your site. And it feels like home. I wanted to introduce myself and get your understanding on my path. Am I an empath? I am still seeking clarity on that. I have shut off my ability to tap into energies as it was very very heavy for me and was causing a lot of distress. I have had a 2 jobs since which had a high raptor conscience flowing within and just resigned today from the current one. I have picked up raptor energy forces and it has been very very dense for me. I am feeling a sense of something since I found your site...I know this has been divinely guided and the journey has only begun for me. I have resonated alot with your path as a catalyst - perhaps you can enlighten or guide me to understand what my gifts and abilities and purpose means. With Thanks and Gratitude, Nivasha South Africa