Dear Scott ,Open and all those tuning in ,

First of all let me say that I also often feel that Open posts exactly the things I am going through .Eerie it is sometimes 😄

As I have shared before ,my brother suffers from a severe form of depression and it's only now ,at 39 that he has shared how he has been depressed and anxious since he was around ten years old . I am about three years older than him and I will confess that in my heart there is a lot of guilt for not picking it up sooner or helping him more. That being said ,I have been on my own journey working to undo the emotional repercussions of being born into a deeply unconscious family ( and world) . After all my exoration ,including all that I shoulda ,woulda done ,I have come to conclude that the best I can do is hold a very high vibration and be in connection with him . Since there is severe parental emotional dysfunction and mom is the primary caregiver here ,that sometimes also means taking some space and stepping out of family dynamic. Which in 3 D may seem like abandonment to him ,but is purely to make sure I don't lose higher perspective. At one time I felt I would lose him to depression induced psychosis or suicide. In his case though ,the drugs have actually brought him back out if his severe depression . I am aware that he will have to work hard and in challenging psychological circumstances to reach the root of depression and probably plenty of therapy as well as meditative practice is in order. On my part I have deeply explored my grief and helplessness and also wanting to take control . At this point ,I am taking it a day at a time. Being in gentle contact with him and yet not usurping his pain as my own ( making boundaries). I am seeing this as a journey I may be able to help with ,if I am asked ,but definitely not my path. Even with my mom I am very cognizant of boundaries and my own emotional space . Thus far ,this very gentle ,non intervention has helped him . He spoke to me and said he loved me for the first time in a decade two days ago .

My heart goes out to.you ! IIdont k ow if this helps in your situation at all . I am sure my responses would be much more different if it were my own daughter . Hopefully there is something that may help though. Lots of live to you Scott. And your lovely daughter .

Megha