Inspiring article and a great opportunity to do some free wheeling after hibernation :)

What is the soul yearning for?
What is more important than breathing?

Definitely to know the Truth.

Unknowingly and as a child I was searching for ‘truth’ by exploring abandoned wrecked houses around my neighbourhood – the truth was ‘out there’ but intensely felt ‘in here’. Then, as a teenager, the zest for knowing the Truth was established and of course propelled by an experience of existential depression and meaninglessness – the truth was somehow ‘out there’ and ‘in here’. Since then, I got ‘distracted’ many times from this yearning , though sooner or later realised that ‘distractions’ are indeed the sign posts that guide us back onto the wave we fell off from – they are to be appreciated and listened to deeply.

Embarking on a ‘spiritual’ practice often fuels this yearning for Truth – inner and outer. Engaging in forms of activism also fuels the same yearning on many levels (3d, 5d etc). Even the yearning to know the Truth reinforces its own yearning. So, there tends to be a strong sense of mission and purpose behind this, which feels like a deep connection to a bigger perspective, to a felt sense of oneness that is all-encompassing, which calls us for action…for sharing it with others in all its unique forms.

I know this happened to me about 7 years ago. A painful, unglamorous awakening (deep powerful insight), which keeps maturing and includes experiences of wonder and amazement, and which fired up inside me a sense of missionary zeal. It felt energising, empowering and of course alluring too. My work/life were/are a mission….I see this now more as a process of maturation into the awakening I experienced.

The ego of course tries to own the yearning for the Truth and hence the purpose/mission. It uses the mission as a platform to re-construct itself. At times my ego pops up (e.g. trying to convince people) and although I see her, I still get hooked. So, the universe decided to once again show me the openway through various and different reflections in 3d (which made sense to me) that included articles, a talk, a book/teaching, work-related challenges and flu symptoms (throat blocked, coughing and tiredness - still experiencing).

Yesterday was a delightful day. I took a walk that lasted a lot longer than expected in one part of the luscious woods I often go to, where I hadn’t walked before. I got lost for a while and then discovered the most amazing spot ever right at the heart of the woods! A refreshing stream with numerous rock formations around it; tall trees at the banks with lots of bluebells and other beautiful plants; deer, an enormous fox; and a HUGE ant colony working their way back and forth from their immense nest! They were crawling up on tree branches, on the rocks, on leaves, everywhere.

It’s just so great that every time I feel/am lost that’s when I find myself and what I need. Amazing sight! I definitely felt “cherished, held, nurtured and supported”. And the ants were definitely showing their support by crawling all over my legs and taking a bite. Part of me was “oh no!” and another part was “oh yes!” Ha ha. It’s like how I sometimes feel … I can feel anger and laugh at the same time, feel sad and smile at the same time, annoyed and interested at the same time, so expressing all facets of the soul at the same time!

Blessings :)