Hi Open,

For the past few days I've been sailing over the karmic waves. It's all started with an ancestral karma based on scarcity consciousness which then took me back into previous lifetimes here on earth.
One thing that coming up is' strong victimisation', being a victim of the circumstances. It was a little painful to see that I got this from a very younger age. A lot of emotions came with this.Its more like ' I can't have anything, so I would be accepting whatever comes", a stubborn mental attitude which inturn blocked all the motivations to go further,to explore or to change. It was more like taking No as the first answer.
Where does the victimisation come from? I'm well aware that im creating all the experiences I need so that my soul can forge through. Yet, why victimisation? Is there something I'm missing to integrate or Am I not asking the right questions? Is victimisation a karmic pattern or some mental loop? I saw a pastlife vision of a young girl wearing shabby clothes covered with dirt and mud begging on the street. I think its all connected.

Another thing is I feel blessed to connect with gaia strongly, as if she is in my field ,watching over me. Because of my attachments and identifications , I lose it easily, but it is still in the background.

Thank you
Soumya