I was in Glastonbury Saturday treating my mom to a vegetarian birthday lunch...She was checking the menu out inside (as we had her dog with us) while I sat at one of the tables outside. I was happily enjoying the fresh air (reckon I sniff an attachment to fresh air here) when a rather intimidating (to me at least) looking guy came and sat right opposite me on 'my' table and started rolling and then smoking a cigarette. I find that not too much triggers me these days and most experiences are perfectly ok just as they are but on this occasion as the smoke wafted my way I could feel all sorts of things going on within my inner world...immediately judgement was there...followed by a pinch (or two) of disapproval...definite resistance...a sense of pushing away and then...ANGER. I sat with the anger for a while as he smoked his cigarette, hoping to catch his eye so I could give him 'the look' I was clearly feeling brave with my anger. I eventually decided to leave rather than confront and so took my disapproval with me.

I feel a bit uncertain in the experience not sure exactly what the invite was, whether it was expressing myself with compassionate yet respectful strength whilst allowing the angry but not loading the expressive energy with it or just feeling it and being awesomely ok with it and not wanting it to be different.

I'm happy to just allow the clarity of experience to surface when it's ready but if anyone has any thoughts they are happy to share that would be most welcome too.