Hi Marje,

Perhaps the difficulty lies in our respective perceptions of the word 'resist'? In retrospect, I could have used a different word. I could have used the word 'penetrate' or 'penetrate with awareness'.

If there is an efforting to resist something, then yes, that can create identity. It all depends where we are on the spiritual path too. If we're still at a pre-awakening state, breaking into an awakening, then yes, resisting day-to-day experiences could create some kind of spiritual identity, which only does things because it believes that's the 'spiritual thing to do' - that's the 'done' thing.

Instead, a more appropriate and beneficial approach would likely be to allow yourself to do whatever it is you feel to do. Even if you know that to be 'matrixy' behaviour. But then to be watching yourself in the behaviours as an Observer of yourself. Get used to watching yourself in these actions. The deeper meaning, becomes more about a deeper sense of self: that you are not the behaviours, thoughts and emotions in response to these circumstances, but rather that which is watching through them.

This begins to disassociate you from the behaviours. You start to find the deeper meaning in them - your deeper self. It's a feeling that is through all things. Steadily this becomes more important than the situations themselves. At this point, you can then more easily challenge the behaviours and transform them.

So I'd suggest a protracted period of accepting the behaviours and watching yourself in them. Steadily working to know yourself beyond them.

I trust this helps

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