Apollonius , i totally resonate with your comment. I see this aspect of control in myself when I'm dealing with entities. To me vulnerability has been a great key in these situations. Often these need for control comes from a need to be a certain way in the outer situations and when i let that go i can let go of this control and the density which has holding the entity naturally unravels. So it's not really a question of how can i be nothing in the situation.

Marije, i feel to respond with an experience i had some time back. Hope you resonate. Some months i woke up at 4am feeling tired and under attack and i felt to meditate. Some time into the meditation intellectually i came at this answer. The need for me to clear this entity is because of a need to 'perform' in class i had to take the same morning. At the moment i could just let go this need to perform and the entity which was holding on to this tightness and expectation unraveled without me doing anything. It was like magic. I was being 'nothing' in it at that situation. So i think it should begin with an enquiry as to why its there. I hasten to add it's not really this straight forward everytime. I also wake up most morning feeling tired and possibly under some attack. But nowadays i observe that if I sit long enough with the tightness and the attack it begins to unwind naturally and lightness comes through. Then its only a matter of giving attention to the lightness.

You also wrote ,

I have also realised that this is now almost becoming like a strategy (intention?) that I apply in order to clear things up and feel somewhat ‘sane’ again

Yes, i have seen this exact dynamic in myself. This is particularly in line with what i said above. Is there an attachment to this 'sane' part of yourself?

With love

VImal