Hi, Amber thank you for sharing I resonate a lot with what you are saying, specially about having had no choice but to go sit down and let it happen, I also feel a loss of 'consciousness' or ego maybe?. When I process what you describe as baseballs I feel as though there is a melody or a chord associated with them, the higher it rises the higher the pitch; When it reaches my head it seems like its too loud to hear, I feel light headed though I know the sphere is still there.
In my experience dancing helps, I know it sounds silly but I guess its my form of yoga; as I let the melody or pitch (its not exactly music though it is beautiful) guide my body I feel the energy well up and fill every vein and crevice in my body, then get ejected out kinda like knots that untie easily and completely with one tug of the ripcord, like the tangle was something I imagined.
I would like to say that there are off days where I just feel frustrated that there are more tangles, but I'm starting to get the idea that maybe if the energy just keeps flowing it wont be able to tangle, or maybe it'll even start to work itself out (rolling rock gathers no moss?).
I think what I was having trouble with was accepting that this is not happening on my schedule, and I have no idea how much past life karma I have left to deal with. I am working to accept both of these, thank you Chris I feel like when ever I want to ask for advice you post the answer before I get to ask the question. Thank Gaia for all this synchrony I guess, and thank you for all of the wisdom you share.
Love, Light, Music of the Spheres,
..S*