Hi Open, I greatly appreciate your support and being fully with me on this. Interesting that I somehow thought that eating fish and seafood had less of an impact on sentient life than eating animals. What a convenient way to think when I'm wolfing down prawns! Now that you say it, it makes perfect sense. Thanks for pointing out that there is no distinction. Right now I'm feeling overwhelmed, pissed off, and angry about this crazy 3-D world --intervention and all -- and how we generate (myself included) so much suffering for ourselves and all sentient life. Detaching from the illusion and drama is just plain hard. I have the urge to run away and just be an air-head and a beach bum. My higher self has seen fit to close off some of those escape hatchets, so here I am with me and my stuff to process and release. I saw my chiropractor today, and we talked about my karmic reaction. I have a tendency to deny my emotions, so he reminded me to feel them from the place of the observer. It was his assessment that the particular meridians in my body that are holding blocked energy point to anger and frustration in the gallbladder about not reaching my goals. I am aware that I'm attached to outcomes; hence my frustration. He cautioned that it is easy to get pulled back into regressing when one starts to move forward. I resonate with your point about true compassion. It only exists when one aligns with right action. Otherwise, it's just B.S. and a bunch of empty words. I am making changes to align myself with true compassion for all sentient life. I can't imagine forgiving myself until I do that without it all feeling like a sham and a lie. I don't expect that feeling whole and complete and more peaceful will result in a wholly functioning body. I've never even pictured that for myself. But perhaps it will help me to maintain enough mobility for the rest of my wild and wonderful trip here in this lifetime so I can continue to engage with the world around me. You and Trinity are awesome. Gratitude. x Catherine