The spiritual catalyst? without a doubt. I grew up thinking the world delusional and tone deaf. People around me ( those supposed to be in a position of responsibility and leadership) said one thing and did another. The whole of society was awash with unconsciousness. So many aspects of community could be richer and fairer if people made small shifts in awareness. With the realisation that life was never about fairness, I had to progressively let go of my judgement and idealism. That was a burden which was hard to carry. I always noticed how I seemed to steer people to fierce reactivity but only when I saw things that needed to be called out and challenged. I suppose there was a phase in my life where I tinkered with stirring dissent at dinner parties and the like, a sort of revenge for what I saw as being controlled and bullied in my younger years. Then it became self amusement, thinking I'd might as well enjoy myself in an insane world. Hopefully I have matured to the point where there is a minimal, wilful nature in being catalytic. This article is timely food for thought. Being tactile while not losing the thrust of the energy? Well, that might be a delicate process as I feel an almost elemental need for heady expression arising these days. I will gratefully accept feedback from my Openhand colleagues if I appear to be unbalanced.