Although a bit perplex about I at first, I realise I resonate with the described dynamic and certainly have catalyst characteristics. I think of myself as an empathic and compassionate person and find myself in the role of diplomat and connector quite often. But I can also have fun in stirring up the field and as long as this is done unintentionally and from a caring perspective, it often works to break open a situation.

For example, during lockdown I have travelled to Africa, when travelling was not allowed. This stirred up quite a lot of emotion in friends and colleagues around me. While and after travelling the feeling of liberation and freedom were undescribable. The slight feeling of guilt that came with it subsided when I let go of the need to be be a certain ‘responsible’ citizen in the eyes of somebody else. The softening up of judgment within some friends as a result was moving although others did not at all, but that’s what it is.

To simply ignite that fire within me and feel the liberating force of it ripple out was feeling so good. When the expression is aligned and true (which it certainly was 😉 ), I do not feel responsible or guilty for somebody else’s discomfort.

However it can be really hard work to stir up the treacle and I have not mastered the art yet. It is so spot on this describing of stirring the thick treacle ! It releases a lot of energy and when I have to hold the thrust it tends to build up a lot of tension inside. Walking , dancing and yoga are really helpful then indeed.

I do not always manage to hold the force due to resistances within. When I cannot express the tension in an aligned way I’ll either kind of explode or implode. It can feel like a pressure cooker sometimes. When fear or intended outcome creeps in my tendency is to retract and my challenge is to keep feeling, expressing and retracting regularly to hold the force. And to be more fearless in pushing forwards in a sensitive way and to care less what other people might think.

And I may have found a link to my habit of biting my nails which probably connects into the retracting of soulenergy. So much to chew on in this article, hours ahead of me to dig deeper and explore, thanks for so many new insights.