Although a bit perplexed, I realise I definitely am a student catalyst. Wish I had read this article in 2011 ;) You describe the process very detailed and this really resonates. I would not have called myself a catalyst because I tend to feel lots of compassion and empathy and tend to be the diplomat and connector in difficult situations. But I have found myself in situations where by just being me in a genuine, clear and harmonious way I tend to stir up the field unintentionally. The driving force is to feel and express freedom inside myself. So for instance I took up travelling in Africa during the  lockdown which stirred up quite a lot in people around me and made me feel like a bit of a 'badass'. There was a slight feeling of guilt involved in these situation but what resonates now is that I do not have to be a teacher or healer. Ingniting a fire can feel really liberating in the field and that feels awfully good actually.

However it doesn't always work like that. Stirring up the treacle is pretty hard work and releases a lot of energy.  But when I have to hold the energy or even lose the thrust , tension is building within me. I do recognise that exercise in nature, dancing and yoga is really helpful. I haven't mastered the craft yet. When I feel too much tension and do not know how to express in an aligned way, or cannot anymore because of the tension, I hold myself back or kind of explode.

I  can chew on this sharing a bit more because I now also have a lead to the enquiry within myself about the destructive habit of biting my nails. It is not just a habit, but an inward way to control the energy inside myself. Don't know how this enquiry will evolve, I'll see, reflections are welcome.