I want to change my above answer! To a complete affirmation of I have zero idea of which one I am at.

I walked away from my earlier answer and just threw my hands up in the air and thought well....who's to say and who's to know really. Then that internal dialogue happens and Ive felt all day going hmmmm!! Those moments in time in my life that used to be full of complete sorrow when looked at by me had dissipated, had been what I thought to be processed completely.. Then all of a sudden I'm looking at them again, picking them up inside me and seeing the story all over again. Like I'm telling myself my story all over again and a part of me is thinking, been there, done that do I really need to integrate into again?! I relived parts of my life in a few hour's time and just feel very very tired now.

So I have no idea, all I know for absolute certainty is that I did not have to come here, that I chose it. To help people. Yet somewhere in that I forgot to help myself too, which is what I'm working on.

Wyndè