Hi Open,

The past few weeks have been full of tremendous change. A pull to move locations took me to Auroville. The initial excitement faded when I caught a cold, followed by fever and cough. While struggling physically, I also got the opportunity to feel Cyclone Ditwah, which was approaching the Puducherry coast around 125 kms away. What can I say—the energy was immense. I felt my own energies amplify with a sudden kundalini rising. The cyclone caused severe damage and loss of lives on the Sri Lankan coast 🙏, but it weakened before reaching Puducherry.

Did the cyclone call me there? My first impulse was to ask why I created a trip at that exact time. But I know I received the lessons I needed. It wasn’t a mistake. I could see the poverty consciousness in me shaping the reality around me. I realized I didn’t trust myself to stay there until every penny ran out. So I caught my breath and came back to my parental home—still with fever and cough, with no resources, no relationships or friends around, and complete uncertainty.

Each cell in me feels the density. I know it’s chaotic here, yet I chose to come. With debates blaring on news channels, reels playing on my parents’ phones, a door that can’t be closed properly—there I sit on my bed with my headset on, meditating.

I don’t know… I was laughing today while watching my situation. What crazy joke am I playing here?😁

I find it hard to fast because my blood pressure drops, and I’ve created a few fainting situations. So I think intermittent fasting is better for me.

This morning during meditation, I had a feeling of becoming a phoenix rising from the ashes of an old reality. Later, I saw an ad for Avatar in the local newspaper with an image of a phoenix rising from the fire.

It’s dense here, and I’m feeling everything, and I’m fully on.

All insights are welcome.

With love ❤️

Soumya