Hi Sander & Rich - sounds like you've arrived at an understanding that makes sense of the current situation.

However, my sense is that some compromise is being made with the flow - and if it is, that's entirely okay. Providing that is, we're in truth about it. That we're being entirely honest with ourselves.

Sander you said...

A year of freedom has shown me just how steadily and heavily repetitive daily activities numb the soul. In fact, to be completely honest, the past year has still been filled with a lot of repetitiveness which has shown me just how integrated that was and still is in my life. Even when I (intellectually) knew I was changing everything, I was (and am) still keeping 80-90% the way it was.

Wow, that is honesty. Fantastic. I honour that. But then how, may I ask, can you be at all expecting the flow to generate some kind of magic that leads you to a new way of living and being? If you're not really testing that for yourself 80-90% of the time?

The flow is a moment by moment commitment to break into whatever is resisting the path of the soul in any given moment.

I recall reaching this point, where there seemed to be 'no light at the end of the tunnel', and no apparent way of breaking out of a tremendously intractable situation. It was a lot more than just about having no money - apparently other people's lives, including two children, were riding on it too. I reached a place of complete, sobbing-surrender...

"I will not take one more step, one more breath, one more moment, unless it's coming from the soul, and I can clearly feel its signature."

It's at this point (and I believe it to be the ultimate point of realignment), whereby I could feel the uprising, the upwelling of energy coming from the base, to join up with that coming down from the crown: Massive kundalini activation. The flow said to me: "Awesome!! Now, can you take another step? "Yes", was the answer. I took it. And kept on taking it.

These last three days, I've been in a foreign European city, where I don't know a word of the language, no one is even present enough to listen or help. I'm in a rental car in Italy, so they drive like maniacs. But somehow, if you stay connected in the kundalini flow, especially when things get tight, internal navigation will still work - that's the "Sat Nav" I'm relying upon (surrender, acceptance, trust).

But this all breaks down in fear, or repetitive patterns, or sleep walking. None of it could be possible.

I see that quite often, people have to make compromises if they're not completely all-in, 100%. And that's okay - the Tao is a "step" yes. But it's not a step to some other situation, to then embed into. It's a step that takes you to a different moment to navigate through, and to keep navigating through. It's okay to crystalise into another situation, for a time, but make sure you're being honest with what that's about.

Sander, you've had fear of travelling to Cae Mabon - which is easily laid out all the way. You'll even get picked up from the train station. This fear is exactly the reflection of the fear you're facing in your own inner journey. Let's be crystal clear about it, with no fudges or half-measures - this is why the flow is not creating magical connections at this time.

Although what I should say, is that Cae Mabon is the magical connection. Why? Because it's revealing what's getting in the way.

Our journey here is a tough one. Because the landscape is purposefully locked down exactly to prevent the flow of the soul. However, for those determined enough, the light will always break through. But you have to be prepared to sit in that moment of sobbing-breakdown, inviting the Universe to swallow you whole, rather than taking another step of compromise. In this moment, it is You opening up through the density. It's you that's creating a channel for the light. It flows through you, because you've created the space for it.

It's what I know as true love.

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