Hi Open,

Well I've been doing the wounded dragon meditation for past few days to deal with intense father wounds that have been triggered up, and I'm delighted by the results so far. I'm feeling more grounded and steady, and sitting this morning I was able to get deeper into stillness and SGOB. I noticed how the pain I habitually carry receded and it felt right in my body, relaxed. When a trigger happened and I let myself get pulled out I gently brought myself back to center and despite urge to avoid, I stayed still and watched my reactions. I noticed how the trigger caused a flare of pain in my 'bum' knee, which was proof to me most of my pain is emotional reaction and attachment. I've also noticed despite anxiety and anger I had the will to go outside for some connection with Gaia despite challenging people being around. I can see so much clearer how my energy attracts my circumstances. I'm better able to keep the anger at bay and stay focussed. Not fully there yet but I'm feeling the foundation being laid. The anger is gone today replaced by excitement and determination to stay this path of inner and outer healing. Because of the wounded dragon (and the multidimensional) meditation, and working through the memories with the bow, I'm really starting to believe I can do it. I actually feel like I've made progress when I thought i hadn't. It helps to keep reminding myself that it's all a part of it and not failure as long as I stay present and aware. Being easy on myself is important, as I carry a lot of shame from past behaviours. Reminding myself I'm not to blame and that those behaviours are not who I am but came from unconscious drives to fulfill unmet needs has been crucial. Acceptance is indeed vitally important. Reminding myself I'm the observer is changing things too and slowly helping me separate from my attachments to my habitual distortions and dramas. When I went out today a van past by with the words 'Iron Will' on it. Dragon energy is helping me embody that! I will have to keep diving in the muck to find my pieces, but now I know dragon will help fly me back out, and then burn me clean. Thanks for the guidance, motivation and upliftment! The video is so helpful! Very much appreciated as always. And very much looking forward to learning this new breath! Blessings and deep gratitude to you. barb 🙏

PS Ive also noticed that I'm starting to feel again. Like I used to, when I could look at anything and get a deeper sense of it, and how alive that makes me feel. How amazing it is to be alive! I was feeling grossed out recently after touching some fruit fly eggs but then explored it. What's so gross about life? So I brought my consciousness to the eggs and oh wow! The joyful anticipation, the simple ecstatic thrill of emerging from the husk! "I'm alive!" We assume insects feel nothing but I don't believe that anymore, all life is precious! 😊