Yes! This feels so right… The shift I experienced three months ago really was about abiding to one principle and sticking to it: loving discipline. Not efforting, not tightening, not negative self talk to actually force myself to move, simply loving myself enough to be disciplined. And the moment I felt the shift inside myself between the dullness of comfort and the vividness and sharpness of working my body hard and maintaining my field as clean as possible, that’s when I really felt like I could not just occasionally touch my inner power, but truly sit in it.

This is all wonderful, but I realize now the dangers of routine setting in within this discipline. I noticed that I can automatically/unconsciously do bodywork or walk/run in the woods or meditate and then be lulled into thinking this is still discipline when even within this bodywork or walk or meditation, a new level of dull comfort is being established, there is no longer the drive to push myself further. There is a loss of this wild « alive » feeling that I originally experienced. And there’s that creeping little voice that says: « You’ve worked hard enough, why not treat yourself to some rest? Be proud of yourself just for doing bodywork, why not perform an easier routine today? It’s ok if you don’t go past thinking in your meditation, you have a lot on your mind right now… »

So I guess it’s all about continuously actualizing, continuously being aware of where your « limit » is and pushing just past it, so you keep witnessing how artificial the limit actually is?