I'm just in the middle of reading this new book RESURRECTION (given to preview - thank you, Open, it’s such an honour!) and going slowly with it, as page after page it triggers inquiries. Wow, what a journey! I don’t feel ready yet to provide feedback on the full book, it’s still a long way for me to go with it, but felt to share some of my (not easy to hold) contemplations.

Born in the Soviet Union at a time when religion was taboo in the state and society was (forcefully) politically orientated, I was never religious (neither was I ever political). Nevertheless, for long years I had that clear sense of some magical force within and later it was naturally formed as a perception of God within. But now I have a sense that even that can form some subtle identity around the beingness. And I go into questioning it...

What is the truth in understanding God? Do we have the right perception of what is “God”? We say that we are Gods ourselves, or God is within us.

But maybe the icon such as God is a deception itself, that one intentionally created by the Intervention with the purpose of worship? Initially, in front of humanity they (Interventional groups) presented themselves as Gods – it’s already a sign of separation from divinity, isn’t it? And over the ages, a whole bunch of stories were created around that and twisted just for the reason of worship and so control. Thus, the formed perception that God (in general) is something above any imaginable power. We are taught to paint the picture of God in our belief system as being almighty. Is the Source (if that’s what we call “God”) really almighty?

Now it is all embedded in our psyche. That we need some God, an icon, to believe in, whether it is a separate God out there, or is it within us. And we pray to God…

When you ask "God" to give you the wisdom, you are, in that moment, establishing yourself as separate from God”. (the quote from RESURRECTION)

But if God is within us, why should we pray to him/her?

And then… if we find God within ourselves, there is a risk that for many (humans) a sense of "worshipping" could likely come from the ego. Here scenes from the film “The Vikings” came into my internal vision with the character Ivar the Boneless. When one discovers that power within but has the great challenge of holding it (because it might be a mind-blowing experience) and if the ego isn't solved to the highest degree yet, one would come up with a desire to “apply” or demonstrate that power externally, on/to others.

Perhaps there is no God as such at all, but only our own Divinity. Why it is so challenging for us to find the courage or the audacity to believe in what is within us already – in our divine power?

Am I going too far with it all?

With love

Asya