I've been around thr Openhand work for some years now. I feel that I've gained greater clarity and perspectives about what is unfolding on our planet at this time. There is one thing that is a common theme, things are changing rapidly on this planet and it is seen in the world and felt within.

I feel that have intellectually understood the concept of karma and how Open has described it in his writings and the Openhand work. This has only taken me so far along my journey.

My soul was yearning for movement for some time now. I could feel the energy building over the days, months and years. I have several writings about this expanding and contracting process. Giving myself permission to feel it all and come fully alive and contracting down and playing small over the years. Diminishing the love and light that wanted to emerge through my being. Something had to give something had to shift. 

I think about the cliffs edge and there being several options once on that cliffs edge; you can fall off of it, you can jump off of it or you can be pushed off of it. There is also the option of retreating and convincing yourself that right now is not the best time and you retreat from the cliffs edge altogether. I've been at that edge many times over the years and I've retreated back into old ways of being, hiding and playing small.

Through recent life experiences within my relationship I have been pushed off that cliffs edge into the unknown.

With that being said a lot of different karma has popped off inside my being. The biggest one that I'm experiencing is betrayal in this life and in past lives. This betrayal has filled me up with so much anger and rage over the years. But an awareness came to me through all of this and it's the biggest betrayal of all; the betrayal of my true authentic self. Over the years I let my energy seep out of my being and I handed over to others, situations and life over and over again! Man thats a fucking exhausting way to live, actually I would say that's not living at all! 

With all of this being said this energy feels so big and overwhelming to work with but I'm navigating the way forward with all the tools and awarenesses that I've learned over the years. At the moment of writing this I feel grounded and connected to the essence of my being. I will have to go back and read the article to articulate some of the other karmic threads that are coming up for me at this time. This feels good and aligned to share with everyone in the community.

With Love and peace,

Chad