As the shift accelerates and I'm naturally connecting with higher-dimensional energies, there's so much more energy wanting to move through me. But what I find is that It can get a bit frustrating as this energy still has to be channeled through this narrow pipe of a physical body. It's hitting many layers of density inside, especially in the lower chakras. There is a feeling of being trapped in this dense emotional body while the soul in me is yearning for a higher existence and authentic expression.

Lately, I have been expressing these energies a lot through movement, sometimes dancing to powerful, emotive, high-energy songs or even screaming the energy out at times. Our landlords gifted us a "higher shelf" for the kitchen yesterday but instead wanted to keep some of their stuff in a box in one of our rooms. Space is being created in the physical and emotional to receive more information from the external, which in turn is opening up the higher paradigm.

Today, after such a process, I couldn't sit still in my room and wanted to hike through the nearby forest to the waterfall and later take a dip in it. I stopped on the way to a restaurant to grab a bite. There was an inquiry in mind about support and trust that needed some clarity. So I asked, "Show me," to the universe. Immediately I saw a guy wearing a t-shirt with a picture of Buddha on it, and he was carrying a leaning rest pad from a chair. That seemed like a direct reflection. I think I'm the monk still carrying the perspective of external support. But what I really wanted was to know how to break this internal chain. The lady near me touched the pink-colored top hanging on the ceiling on her way out, showing the presence of the 'internal mother' or Quan yin energy, which is the real source of support and love.

I had to halt my bike on the way to the forest because there was work going on and a JCB was removing large rocks from the road. I observed a man using a chisel to smash these rocks. I suppose these rocks are what I carry about in my emotional body, and I'm breaking them down one at a time. I parked my bike there and walked the rest of the way to the forest and beyond.

The forest was stunningly gorgeous, especially with the stream close by. I saw a green-colored citadel singing her song, and I paused and looked at her. Then it occurred to me, that I was supposed to sit and sing with her. As we both sang together, a primitive sound from my belly and upwards, I could feel the dense emotions dissipating and higher harmony and peace being restored. At this point, the citadel started climbing upward, signaling that the job was complete and I could ascend once more through the forest path. I felt an incredible sense of gratitude for this life and being able to connect with Mother Earth like this.

It still took me at least an hour to sit near the waterfall, contemplating whether to jump in or not. Finally, I had the courage to stand under the icy Himalayan water. I could feel every cell in my body screaming for release and comfort. Nevertheless, I persisted through the pain and kept softening the internal reaction. If I put words to the pain, it would translate to "I'm not good enough". This is perhaps a karmic imprint of carrying the burden of the mission of being a lightworker, bringing light into myself and the world. That is what the recent synchronicities were pointing to. A few minutes later, the pain subsided, and I was washed over with relief and humility. "I don't have to carry this weight. The flow will manage that. All I need is to trust, surrender, and merge with the flow".

Vimal