Dear Open ,

You said

Now is the time to start the real climb - which is the pains taking inner inquiry of peeling back the layers in daily life and reclaiming buried fragments of soul: in relationships especially; how you live and work; in the minutii of daily life.

I am in the mother of all messes in my personal life . I experienced violence at home ,seperated ,had an intense alchemical relationship with a new guy,was snooped on , found out in the most embarrassing of ways and now I am living alone ,with a seething husband not to mention a thirteen year old child in the mix . In 3 months ,my life has turned on its head in the most spectacular of fashions ( started during Divinicus ) .

I am experiencing feelings of lack of safety ,being all alone ,shame and guilt ,fear,regret and a lot of grief . In many ways 'being found out ' is an absolute relief because now I can be honest about everything especially to myself . So much inner child work needs to be done as I deal with patterns of fawning and people pleasing .

I am trying to mantain perspective as much as possible . But the pace of the changes is pretty overwhelming . In the middle of this effing mess ,I seem to have connected with a karmic soulmate / twin flame reflection with strong energetic bonds between us .

Each day seems like a massive roller coaster which seems to be affecting multiple people in my vicinity . I am often to be found sobbing on the floor . Staying present with all of this is taking every ounce of my energy at the moment .

I am aware that there seems to be a massive realignment happening in my energy fields and so many people and situations seem to be dropping off .

Whew :)

A big hello from here 🙂

Megha