Maybe it's because i've lost and am finally coming to terms with it; maybe it's because i'm older and am losing the desire for romantic love; maybe it's because i'm starting to see it was always more about getting the attention i never got as a child; and maybe it's because i've caught glimpses of what it's like to be in a higher place and the intense joy and freedom of it, but yeah, i'd be awesomely okay with it and can't wait till i get there!💜🙏