Open, thank you for sharing your experience

Over years I've learned to be very selective who I talk with and about what.

In my environment most of the time I have nobody who would resonate with what I have to say, and over time I have barely anything to say anyway. This taught me to

1) mainly listen, compassionately and patiently, and over time I've learned to not let what others say, think or transmit infect me or drag me anywhere - it's a kind of skill.

For example, my boss at work is often very judgmental of customers. Once they leave the shop I listen to a judgmental loaded with negativity speech. In the past I tried to change it, but no matter what I did or said it just kept happening. At some point I've realised that this is just how she lets the steam out. So I changed the way I react and respond. I chose to contain her with empathy, compassion and patience. I become empty and transparent, none of her words or energy gets stuck in my field. So as a result I grew and developed immunity.

In other cases, when I'm still triggered, sucked in or infected, I know it is something in me that makes it happen and I go in to find out what exactly makes me react and work with it.

What do I need others to believe? How I expect others to be? And what do I expect of myself when communicating with other people? Often these expectations create more tension than what is happening in reality.

In most cases staying silent works for me.

2) to be ok with being invisible

Living in a "3D" world can make a human being very small, living in a very small, limited world. Even just being around people just makes me shrink at least to a degree. It is like always being contracted by somebody else perceiving me, because people rarely are able to leave enough space for others to be their undefinable self. So I have this amazing trick that works even when there are no synchs, it is easy and instantaneous - I close my eyes and there it is, this vastness, this feeling of "being me" that probably only I can know and that nothing and no one can distort, touch, disturb, contract.

3) to learn something about myself and the universe from almost anybody

I noticed that anything that I perceive by senses makes me experience something. I live in a very dense environment, which could easily crush me unless I use it to learn, grow and evolve.

For example, I often see people who take drugs. They are shadows of themselves, barely dragging their feet, often bruised and dirty, sometimes just lying on the ground, unconscious. But there is a reflection: on one hand they reflect my own unconsciousness, those aspects of me that are still hidden, that are a blind spot, on the other hand there is this immense surrender of who they are that reminds me to constantly let go of what I know, of who I am becoming in every moment.

I believe there is a reason why we are brought to certain people, environments, experiences. I always try to find out what reflection is being offered, what message.

4) to stay in the heart

For me, with my intellectualness there is always a place to be less in the mind and more in the heart. These days it is like what does it matter what people around me say, believe or think? The question for me is do I feel love for them and do I want to be around them. If the answer is yes, then I let them talk, but engage on the heart level. Most people live in their programmed heads. Just being present with my body and heart is a gift I often choose to offer (as long as there is no damage)

5) find out who's my tribe

Recognising who are those people with whom I can rest in my beingness really. Listening to the vibes of people rather than their words and mainly having this "oh, I am feeling it" thing.

Finding inspiring people with positive feedback loops, finding soul friends is a gift from the universe.

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I'm so used to being silent over the last year that writing so much suddenly feels like some channel has opened

Thank you for this.

Hugs