Dear Open,

I am embroiled at present in a pot boiler of drama. With intrigue ,violence ,abuse physical and verbal thrown in along with feelings of Fear ,shame ,guilt in the mix. It's a knotty marital situation that had me locked down in silence ( throat chakra) and fear ( root chakra,) as well as repression ( sacral chakra) . As these chakras seem to be waking up and shaking themselves off ,I am having to process the very karmic debris .

Suddenly all the meditation I have done to the point is having to challenge all my deeply held beliefs about the Matrix in context to relationships ,an area in which I am realising how much entangled I was by the construct. Anyway ,long story short is that I am finally finding my bearings. Interestingly ,an inner knowing has brought me back to my marital home. I sensed that was the best way to overcome the manipulation of my partner . I have to therefore deal with the vibe I seperated from. Which is certainly challenging but also in a strange way enlivenenlivening.Ever since I have asked for a divorce ,he is trying to somehow entangle my energy in with old grouses and complaints . It's fairly challenging to be face to face with his very distorted controlling, manipulating energy and still keep my centre which is what I seem to be doing .

Something seems to have changed though. And I feel far more creative ,strong and centred despite emotional upheavals . I am trying to focus now on breathing and feeling . Everything . Not easy and yet that seems to be driving this situation.

I find it ironic that the comment below this is also mine. Seems like a long time ago even though was but a few months .

Lots of good wishes out there to all and any in difficult situations .

Megha