Thank you Open for leading this inquiry. Sam and Marije thank you for jumping in and adding your vibrant colors! Your reflections really opened me into more clarity and insight, and also brought home a strong feedback loop that it's OK and even beneficial for me to open my mouth and express in public, something I've held deep reticence towards for quite a long time.

Early this morning I was practicing stillness without having yet read any of these most recent posts, incorporating what had resonated thus far and sitting down with a calm curiosity towards going into the stillness "it is what it is."

After a good while of gradually softening through - especially the physical - this body ain't the most flexible thing currently - I noticed that the breath began to feel like a "living ocean," where the ebbs and flows felt and sounded like waves softly and powerfully running through.

A while longer after that, a subtle tension in the throat landed, which then amplified significantly when my open awareness was brought into it. Subtle, fragmented images began to pop up with it, along with a connected pain in the left side of my chest - the feminine side. The karmic images were of a man passing on by decapitation, cut through the neck and martyred by a large group of other men for speaking his truth - at least the truth as he knew it.

The throat tension continued to amplify and at its peak the Ray 3 (just as you describe, Open) gently asked "What did he want to say that he never got to" -- it was that he loved his wife in that incarnation. He wanted to tell her how much he loved her, even though he'd left to follow his own path. There was deep regret that had crystallized around how he'd left - he'd left her abruptly in betrayed, abject confusion. I helped him put his head back on, then a red heart and a white heart appeared and rose up which I gave to him with brotherly love, compassion and forgiveness.

True to form, the flow amplified in 3D life. Later on in the morning I was driving and nodding while reading these most recent four posts for the first time - especially nodding about Ray 3 and the inquiry around impatience. At that exact moment, a red truck with three men crammed into it sped up out of nowhere and began impatiently tailgating the crap out of me. From a place of increased stillness, I watched and felt my initial tension around the rude intrusion into my space, as the diplomatic thought landed "well for all I know they are late for work" - which didn't excuse the behavior of course, but took the personal affront out of it - then realized I was being shown a living metaphor of "impatience," and the recognition of the synchronicity softened me right up, which brought me right back to the "it is was it is" state - and at that exact moment of softening the truck immediately backed off like magic. The entire moment was maybe 5 seconds tops - amazing how much experience can be packed into the tiniest chunk of time.