Thanks Open,

Everything you share in your unpacking of the word "intention" resonates strongly with me.

Sitting in stillness quite often feels like a chore to me. I know how massively beneficial and essential it is from countless experience, but it is still not something I tend to look forward to. For up to an hour before even getting to my meditation spot, all the way to the point where I finally sit my butt down, I feel like a dog sniffing left and right, pacing back and forth, looking for the "perfect place" to do his or her business. Just settle in and do it already!

That same feeling of impatience will sometimes arise later on in another guise in meditation to "get it over with." The Openhand approach I'd typically (correct me if I'm off base) would be to fully allow and express and surrender into that feeling of impatience as it arises, and then open a door through it - and I was plenty freaking frustrated and wanted to express that - but yesterday I just let it be what it is and doubled down on going deeper into stillness. To me it felt more like applying a calmly determined Ray 1 to go deeper instead of allowing/surrendering/expressing, but I can see how it's a similar energetic process from differing vantage points.

Still in midst of contemplation of apathy, which is definitely wrapped up here. It's like a smoke screen. The feeling is of being prevented from fully connecting up with higher consciousness. (As soon as I typed "wrapped" the black snake energy flashed through).

Eric