Dear Open ,

I am in the middle of probably the messiest time of my life right now. My marital relationship is crumbling and I have met someone new . Many,many constructs are breaking down and I am shown almost every hour how I was attached to some or the other aspect of the 3 D construct. I'm on a emotional roller coaster the likes of which I have never been before ( and I work in newborn intensive care ) .All those in my immediate vicinity are being affected - my daughter was going through an ayurvedic cleanse and has been purging as a result physically . All others are very quickly having all sorts of emotional processes kicked off .

As I sat in meditation today however ,I was conscious of pulses of light being channelled through my being stronger than I have felt before . And my higher heart ( thymus gland) seems to have become activated. In meditation I sensed I was some sort of anchor for light in the grid . My heart when activated through the day seems to expand and connect to light beings . I feel drunk with love . My brain completely stops working and I seem to be channelling a high frequency light .

This experience ,in juxtaposition with the emotional drama that is occurring around me is is slightly confusing to say the least :)

Any reflections are very welcome !