Dear All,

I moved into my own house at the last day of january - which was a happy moment - however, since then was not able to arrive internally to fully appreciate the massive amounts of time and work involved to attain all that. Instead, i focussed on the small things that are still missing and for several weeks got stuck in negativity. I did feel greyish in my aura and a being harsh to myself and others, realizing that there was a big block in my heart chakra - and for some reason getting lost in the negative feeling instead of looking at it.

Here comes the point, which might seem extreme in the first place.

Three days ago there was a terrorist attack here in town (Koulikoro, Mali) where a vehicle loaded with some barrels of fuel was exploded in the entrance area of the military installation (run by the European Union to train the malian military). There was a lot of shooting before the actual explosion which woke me up, so i went to the window and saw the fireball rising up some two kilometers distance from me. As i stood there i realized a small contraction in the heart area but otherwise there was no feeling of fear, so i was able to breathe through and not close down, before i felt my body was shivering of the cold. The fear of physical injury or death is something i largely resolved a while ago, otherwise it would not make sense for me to live in a place like Mali. This gives me the opportunity to review the fear of physical insecurity once more.

Now this chain of events was stirring - and this may sound bizarre - the feeling to "explode" (an extreme mirror, isn't it?) my blocked heart chakra and let go of any remaining fear and negativity. Interestingly, the movie title "Indpedence Day" comes to mind, it seems to be time to really let go and again focus on the positive, and not to ignore that which has already been achieved. This feels very liberating, i can now feel the heart chakra warming my core and radiating outwards.

Have a great day everyone,

Thomas