Hi everyone,

Megha's exploration has really struck a chord with me. And particularly what Open said in response: Also not being heard in family - a big one. Many lightworkers with a different orientation to Sirius incarnated there in families, so would have felt quite odd and out of place.

I have for a long time felt like I'm both not being heard and also not understood. There's a lot of misinterpreting what I say from adults in my family and the kids just outright ignore everything. It's increased the feeling of loneliness recently, which interestingly I don't experience when I'm actually alone.

I've had very strong feelings in the last year or so that I was part of the Sirius story, though much of the karma (like breathing problems) doesn't seem to affect me too much.

Another thing that's come up recently is the emotions around not being able to save people/loved ones. I was watching a super hero movie recently and I had to stop it because I was so overcome with emotion, I was bawling my eyes out. The thought kept coming, "I couldn't save them" along with such intense grief.

What's motivating you? At the moment it's a sense of re-building. Re-building my life to be more aligned with where we're all at right now.

What blockages are coming up? There are strong urges to placate the sense of loneliness by re-entering the dating world. I realise that this is only an outer fix to distract me from the pain, but nevertheless the urge does come up.

The other blockage seems to be around finances. I still seem to have a kind of poverty consciousness. Again, it's not always there but rears its head occasionally - particularly when I'm consistently using most of my spare cash on family and don't have anything for myself.

What's your orientation in life? At the moment I feel that the breaking down that's needed in order to realign needs to be supported. I feel both on personal levels and local/global ones that this is the case. I feel that I'm able to support this as a natural expression of who I am.