I took time to lay on the floor for about 30 minutes last night in my living room, which has a skylite through the roof so, I had a spectacular view of the Blood Wolf Full Moon . I felt waves of energy move down from the solar plexus to the coccyx. I waited with that feeling until it took on a gentleness, then I went to bed, but did not rest for a few hours.

The three questions:

1. What is motivating you right now? I am motivated by a sense of awareness of purpose. I have been guided to the people situations & tools that I know are helping me align with my soul, but have trouble with "a perceived proper implementation" of movement forward. It's too fast; too slow; not right. I don't know what I'm doing. I ask "show me". The response seems to be to maintain a passivity, though I don't know why. So, I sit with my passivity - like a lump of coal for Christmas. Doesn't seem too exciting.

2. What blockages are coming up? Impatience of and acceptance of the unfolding of my journey in it's own time. I feel as if I should bask in the steps of the process, but find that difficult. Joy does not spew easily.

Recently during a family squabble, I took the time amidst the exchange to feel where in my body was I responding. I felt my heart constrict a bit which I was able to soften. I also felt tightness in the sacrum & at this point, I wasn't much engaged in the squabble as much as I was noticing and quieting my bodily responses to the energy in the room. It's not that I didn't care about the issue, but to engage in an argument just doesn't appeal to me. Sometimes I think I'm just done or too tired to bother with it. I do feel a bit of guilt at times because I just don't care at that particular level any longer.

3. What is your Orientation in LIfe? I feel a sense of wanting to work directly with people to assist in their self healing and wellness journey. I have been very active in networking and learning where to find an outlet for this endeavor. I am amidst creating a website to allow for people to contact me regarding herbalism and energy facilitation or any combination of both. All the while trying to maintain a home, 2 teenagers and a corporate job. I struggle a bit with the self care aspects, but have found some success with setting daily reminders that pop up and nudge me to "hold space". That small reminder instantly helps me re-calibrate on the spot and hold space for myself, others, the planet, the ether. I am more mindful because of it. I feel this is part of how to transition out of my corporate job, and the empty nest I will soon have.

Thanks to everyone for sharing and holding space.

With an abundance of love,

Julie