Dear Anastasia... thank you so much for sharing this and putting into words that I haven’t been able to put together. Everything you have expressed feels familiar and like chapters of my own story...the unworthiness of the love and acceptance of soul family resonates strongly for me, as does the sense of weakness for not being able to quite “make it” and the need to connect to a family of sorts... a substitute. So grateful for the courage you find to express this even though it is scary. Big heart fulls of love to you. ❤️Jen