Hi Open!

Even though we had a wonderful week of healthy food at Eden Rise thanks to star chef Tilly I experience a huge challenge going back to a healthy diet in my daily life. I wanted to write something about it yesterday but felt the inquiry needed to go deeper than my initial thought of it merely being a matter of discipline. I had the question up: what is the difference between discipline coming from ego and discipline coming from soul? In the past my super healthy eating habits had a strong goal around my appearance, but as that identity is crumbling I find myself eating the processed diet I had as a child. Now at this point I also don't feel I'm trying to suppress feelings with it and it also doesn't feel like comfort. When the inquiry went deeper I realised I'm holding on to a sense of myself as identity, a reference to the old me. I now see myself standing on a precipice staring into the void and the invitation is to jump, but there is an internal panic of "who am I when I let go??" The old behavior gives me a reference to something I know. Ok it's not entirely diet related but I still felt like sharing!

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