Dear Open ,

I have been in deep processing after signing up for the Pranayama class next door to my condo. What is coming up for me right now is a deep sense of Worthlessness. I am feeling deeply as if I am truly not deserving or good.

This has been triggered by the fact that I don't have much work . And now I'm wondering if what I do is in fact a dfence mechanism to not feel this deep sense of ' I am not good enough' . In many ways this come from childhood experiences- I am a sum total of what I do not who I Am. But also I feel it comes from previous lifetimes where I have judged myself deeply and persistently for not contributing enough / doing enough / being enough .

Reflections are welcome !

Megha