Probably the wrong forum to post in ,but I had to tell you all this .

As I learn to deal with the aches and pains of my Crown chakra opening up ,there was an opportunity to take a Pranayama course close by. It's in the basement of a nearby house and the instructor is good at the physical aspects of yoga ,but I get the feeling he hasn't integrated the emotional at all so comes across as quite egostical. I am bang in the middle of the course and feeling into the myriad sensations the breathing is setting off . It's almost as if a large voltage that is going through the system is highlighting all my blockages at once.

Yesterday I became aware at a deep grieving for the distorted masculine. A colleague who I have a deep soul connection with had invited us over the weekend. Visiting his house and seeing how far down the road he is in being lost in materiality made me feel so disillusioned and sad ! . I felt such grief for him and his family and the whole three D matrix that has pulled the wool over our eyes !

In the morning today I was feeling into the heartache as also the solar plexus and (my favourite )my hips when I became aware of deep density in my sacrum and iliac bones that felt like burning . And as I felt into them ,something integrated and I got the image of a butterfly. Do you know that the sacrum and the iliac bones actually do look like a butterfly.

I start off writing these posts intending to only give a little snippet but all this 'stuff' seems to want to pour out even though it makes absolutely no linear sense . 😀

Lots of love and processing to all of you !

Megha