Dear Open ,

That is a fascinating enquiry to lean into . I agree ,much of my rage was outward . At the lack of authentic masculinity . And yet ,I for sure , have often retracted from calling out toxicity so many times. My toxic feminine which expresses itself as allowing wrongdoing for fear of reprisal or because I was seeking outside approval or just to be part of a community , has often smothered the internal white hot energy that is clean and clear. That would be my internal masculine ,I suppose. As I feel this energy well up in me ,as I allow it to hold centre stage within my life ,I feel empowered enough to be gentle and sensuous ,authentically .

For much of my life ,I never expressed either my innate femininity nor the firm boundaries my masculine should have been .I was attenuated into suppressing the power and beauty of my own sexuality .

Today while reflecting internally about what it meant to see my sacral and iliac bones as a butterfly it just struck me. The wings are the masculine and feminine . When beating in unison ,we fly !

Deep love and Gratitude !

Megha