Thank you for sharing your experience Jennaya. I am always so filled with gratitude when someone allows themselves to express their deepest feelings and be vulnerable enough to know that someone else needs to feel like they are not alone in a similar experience that they are having, have had or may have in the future. My belief is that those of us who love with our whole heart and soul and are sensitive to the needs of others (empathic/caring/conscientious) feel especially uncomfortable when negative feelings enter our field, especially when seemingly unfounded. My partner in life always tells me "be gentle with yourself" and it reminds me to remember that intent is the most important of our thoughts and feelings. From what you said it appears that your intent is not guiding your thoughts to a negative space towards this other individual, so most likely the feelings are present and beyond your control. Surrender to the thoughts and feelings, experience them fully and then allow them to evolve. There may be a very important journey that needs to be taken with these feelings in order for you to progress. Remember that meditation is not about "zoning out", but is about "zoning in" and allowing experience to flow through you for whatever purpose it serves. I am grateful for your sharing this because I needed to be reminded of elements of my journey that made me extremely uncomfortable and remember that those are the times that I grew the most. I remain humble to the source and grateful for the lessons.

Namaste,

Aphroheidi

"This light of mine isn't so little..."