Hi Aspasia - I really connect with the metamorphosis you speak about. Indeed it is for me ,as i see the truth inside the distortions and peel away it, it feels like i'm not ditching the old habits but evolving it into newer more aligned forms. In the past ,like i said ,i had tried to move into a 'better' version of myself but this better version is just an identity in the head. In my experience it wont work unless i first honour and accept the current version with its imperfections,needs and desires. Today while meditating ,this is exactly what came into my mind. What im now with my imperfections and inabilities is the exact reflections others need to see. And i can also accept others flaws just like mine because they offer the synchronistic reflection i need to see. This way even the imperfections works perfectly.

I was actually surprised when you said 'directness' because i was observing and contemplating dishonesty lately and how it breeds complexities and this is also what i see within the family and also in a book that i read. There's a part of me that wants to reach out and solve it. This is simply because caring about how others see us and not wanting to hurt others or myself. Finding a way of how best to express my ray 1 in situations without causing disharmony. I'm also inspired by you and others directness here and i see less effort. Unlike my case where i mostly struggle to express directly. Maybe this is diplomacy coming into the front but with distortions.

I'm also observing small breakthrough leading to changes in the outside as well. I had been becoming more lineant with how i spend money. Spending in my creative endevours and all. The universe came back in this case with offer from another institution asking me to teach there. Surprising! This feedback builds more trust and hence more flexibility. I was contemplating about resources in regards to my diet and there was a mango lying in my porch from the neighbours mango tree with which i made smoothie today. It seems trivial but i knew at the moment that it was for me. This knowing is what matters i think. I also feel a bit more settled into immedieate enviornment and experience and not 'hurrying' into other experiences. This is a relief.

I really like and resonate with what you shared here

Is there judgement about the value of 'myself' because there is comfort eating? This needs to be diffused so that comfort eating does not become a destructive activity unnecessarily :)

How does comfort eating really serve in the moment? What's good about it? Liking the taste? - perfect :)

This can also be applied to any distortions and addictions. In my experience its the diffusing of self judgment that comes first. This helps to see the truth buried inside the distortions. Today i was experiencing an addictive behavior and there was softening into acceptance of it while it was happening. And i didnt condemn it anymore but valued it just because it provides an opportunity to break through self judgement and resistance. And i have to pass through it again because i know i haven't fully found and expressed the aligned behaviour or alternate way as you say. But i can remember the process and apply it.

Thank you and I love our connection too

Vimal