Anastasia your boldness for putting this out there just warms my heart! I had nearly the same experience after I guess they call it the "wake up!" This was awhile back as well. I too have had abandonment and betrayal experiences but I only own them in the aspect that they are truth. I had to come to a place though where I just said nope, I will never ever abandon or betray my own self. The entire world might do that to me, but I will not. Especially after learning how I had been judging my own self so harshly, that was horrific to know.

As far as Egypt and those times, you gol!! BE that if it brings you anything you need for you! I experienced/saw the vision of someone in those times. I heard a voice saying that was who I was, this was what I did etc. I don't want to say the name though here. I have a hard time writing anything online without feeling, experiencing/hearing and sometimes even seeing some inquisition that does not reflect who I am right here and right now! Yet what I did in regards to the rising up within my soul was just say, OK then. That was then and this is what I know and learn from it. I will honor something though here, I will give a shout out to the Eye or Horus for the gift given to my Mother for me right before I was born. Its a ring I have had my whole life and my Mother gave it to me right before she died some years back and told me a story about it. Ive only recently though started to call it the eye of horus because the gem is huge and kind of looks like an eye just watching out for me for which I am ever so grateful!

But maybe this whole sirius thoughtform/entirety is just that, a reflection to work though, honor and give respect to oneself? I'm also a highly creative person, constantly creating and when I see the huge chasm, the dark void, I just jump right in and just say Woooooooooo! But then again I find alot of solace in the dark.

Anyways, much love to you Anastasia!

Wyndè